24 Nov 2007 - Part 1

a very hurting and gek sim nite yday....restless nite too........today heart still feel heavy.......noe why? ....here the story.......

yday nite i called bf a few times........he never ans my call.....then around 11.45pm..he called back and say he very tired...wan to rest early......so i say Ok......go rest early........then i say bye to him...he juz never reply me........then after tat i went to do my mask......after around 15-20 mins.......i remove my mask and went to my hp......he sent me a msg.........inside the msg he write "sorry ah, sorry...not dont wan care or be sensitive to you, juz tat i feel we have nothing much to talk and i think we have communication problem" ......the moment i c his msg, my heart sunk and hurt so much.....juz feel like crying lor..........why he always tink we have communication problem???? i do the talking most of the time...and he juz simply listen to me........he dont like to talk tat much too.......sometime he can juz drift away from my conversation lor......haiz......then i msg back and tell him tat since he tink we have communication problem.....why still dragged our r/s for so long......it only make our communcation problem WORST!! but he never reply back...tink he already sound alseep and dont care abt how i feel......

morning he sent me a reply..saying tat he juz wan to tell hime how he feel la....and hope can solve the problem....i reply back "this is no the first time u say we have communication problem lor.......wat is the problem??? everynite i wait eagerly for u to call me".........i still waiting for his reply.....haiz.........

gosh...next coming mon is our 3rd yrs anniversary lor....i waiting eagerly for the day to arrive so tat we can celebrate...but now tis stupid incident created by him...make me so dishearted and sad ....haiz......can anyone tell me wat should i do......... ;(